Since no one comes to my journal anyway, I'm just gonna put "spoilers" in the Title. Because seriously, I'm a bitch like that.

So, Journey's End. The last episode of season four of Doctor Who.

I watched it at about 12 AM Sunday morning. I was SQUEEING by the end. Now that I've had time to think about, I think that if I ever squee at this episode again I'll shoot myself.

After a lot of thinking and prowling livejournal (I've managed to stay away from the places of the most fanwank) I've decided that I have NO CLUE what I think. Seriously. I'm totally freakin' confused. [On a sidenote, I'm watching Resident Evil and OMFG there's ZOMBIES! xD I love zombies.] So yeah. YEAH. I am so confused. Personally, I liked the Ten/Rose fluff. AT FIRST. Now I just sort of cringe. It was just so awfully put together and just...I definitely feel that RTD was just trying to tie everything up with a bittersweet bow. Yeah, I just got the bitter part. That's not the way I wanted Rose to go off. I don't think...I dunno. I like that she has her own Doctor but at the same time...I have no idea. Again, CONFUSED. 

I was definitely sad at Donna's "death." I don't criticize the writer's about it, though, like a lot of people do. Yeah, it SUCKS what happened to her. Really, it does. But that's the freaking point. It's supposed to make the viewers upset--it's an upsetting event. I just don't get why people are like "RTD sucks, he was so awful to Donna!" Yeah, RTD sucks like 99.7% of the time, but not because of that. I think it was awful and sad and beautiful. Because the Doctor is all alone, again. EMO CORNER ALERT! 

Oh, and that too. People are like, "Why can't he just be HAPPY for once?" And I'm like, "Are you KIDDING me?" Because I LOVE emo Doctor. He's so cute! I just want to huggle him. And besides, happy characters are so boring...who wants to watch a happy character? Okay, yeah, if a character does nothing but angst and emote all the time it gets awful but I love how the Doctor is like, one moment SUGAR HIGH!!! and the next like totally ready to cut himself to Evanescence. He's so manic depressive, and it's amazing. 

And Rose. Oh, Rose. I actually LIKED her in Turn Left. Like, a lot. She was cynical and smart. And she wasn't too bad in Stolen Earth. I felt really bad for her when everyone was space-facebooking each other and she was left with her stupid dial-up conection that wouldn't let her get an account (okay, yeah, metaphor gone WAY too far). And the end was so sad, the reunion. I just melted. Sort of. I don't usually melt, so yeah...not much melting going on there. And I liked her in Journey's End, especially when she compliments Martha. I definitely would have liked to see more of that potential friendship. But no. They need to have the BEACH SCENE. Which, by the way, if you watch the Confidential, was freaking big kiss. Not that you would have noticed in the actual episode because of the awful camera work. But the beach scene...it didn't have half the emotion that it did in "Doomsday." It was just a Deus ex Machina and a LAME one at that. I didn't mind, 10.5, not in the least. And that was the logical path for him. And everything would have been good except something was wrong and I really can't put my finger on it. 

But the point is, I definitely don't criticize Rose's character because of these three episodes. Again, I've seen people say "Oh, she didn't grow up or move on and she's so spoiled." For starters, I bet she knows that. Most spoiled people know they're spoiled. Given that fault, that gives her a point in my "Non Mary-Sue" column that I have for deciding whether or not she's a Sue. But seriously, since I've seen about two episodes of seasons one and two, I really can't have a good opinion yet. But the thing is, the THING is (yes, I did repeat that. This movie must be getting to me) she didn't HAVE to "grow up." She knew she could get back to him and she was desperate for him. That's what you do when you're in love. Yeah, it might not be admirable or right, but it's definitely a good character traight. And I think Rose did grow. I think she realized, after losing him, that life wasn't all just one big adventure that got fixed at the end of the day (although if she had watched this episode her opinion probably would have changed). I think if Rose was really as big of a Sue as everyone said she was she would have "risen above it" and gone back to her universe only to save the day and would have been "mature" and gotten over the Doctor. Because that would have made her a perfect human being. I think when it comes to Rose, people use the word "Sue" way too much. Yeah, she's overrated (although I don't really know that, seeing as I haven't seen much of her) and can be annoying but that's not what makes a Sue. Really, it isn't. A character can be annoying and not be a Sue. But again, I don't really know. I haven't seen that much of Rose. 

And I like Ten/Rose. I love Nine/Rose. I think it's cute and sweet, but I'm not crying that she's gone and I'm not whining that she was there. I like my Doctor/Rose fluff, is all. I'm not a fanatic. But then again, I don't really know much about it at all, do I? I'm just gonna have to wait until my birthday and hope someone gets me seasons one and two (yes, I know I can watch it online, but...pet peeve, you know...) 

So, the bottom line is, I don't know that much about Rose. I don't mind what I've seen. She doesn't annoy me, at least not yet, and I think that's important. 

Oh, and Martha. MARTHA WAS TOTALLY GOING TO KICK SOME ASS AGAIN! I love Martha. Seriously. I totally need to see her in Torchwood (I think I will watch those eppies online...) I wouldn't say that Doctor/Martha is a pairing that I like, but I love Martha and his relationship. I don't know...Rachel, I thought about what you said and it totally made sense to me. I wrote this DrabbleFic that you should definitely read. So, yeah, I'm pretty sure that I am currently a Martha fan. Season three is definitely my favorite thus far. 

And I love Donna and am sad she's gone. Really, I am. She was great. And Catherine Tate is like, MY LIFE. Seriously. I just blew thirty bucks on the first season of The Catherine Tate Show (I know, I know, I could watch it online...) She's amazing. And Donna was a great character and I love how she was just totally best friends with the Doctor. 

So, yeah. I'm not going to miss RTD (I don't think he was as terrible as everyone said he was though...and seriously, if he was that bad then why do people watch his show(s)?) and I am going to love it when Moffat takes over (Blink is probably my favorite episode of all time...I hope Sally Sparrow comes back). I really hope Tennant stays on after the specials, but if he doesn't I bet they'll find someone worthy to take over. Although I'll be quite sad. I luff him. I definitely think that he should do an eppie of "Secret Diary of a Call Girl" because I think that he and Billie Piper work really well together and it'd be funny to see them in a different environment. 

I feel better now. I am still confused, though.

And my dear friends, share whatever comments/thoughts/criticisms you have. I MISS YOU ALL! xD 

And dude, Resident Evil is trippy. I <3 James Purefoy.